mercredi, décembre 29, 2004

hola! i've brought out the bottle of J&B and i'm reading up on patent filings, patent searches and all that crap. i figured that drinking would be a way to get me to work during vacation without too much pain. paperwork drives me insane. i need an assistant. a research assistant of some sort. i'd suggest this to the higher-ups but they might actually get me one and i'd like, freak out, with no idea as to what he or she could do - go...make coffee? some research on blah and get back to me. maybe the assistant could help with restaurant reservations? ooh, or concert tickets, i hate doing that. i think the major problem is that i can't do it all myself, but i don't know if i'd trust anyone to do it right. not that i'd get it right.

i haven't touched a camera for over a week and i do think i'm painfully missing it. i'm tempted to take Color Darkroom in january.
"There is no difference between a designer and an artist. They both work with form and content. I try to create art, whether I make it or not is not up to me, it's up to God." - Paul Rand, design genius extraordinaire.

mardi, décembre 28, 2004

everyone's napping. finish your coffee. try to resist. working on some patent submissions. listening to the junior boys.

i went to the bookstore today but couldn't find anything new to read. i get distracted way too easily.
i've started spiking my coffee with insane amounts of sugar. i wonder if it's me remembering the kopi growing up.

lundi, décembre 27, 2004

welcome to Day One of leonard being officially on vacation! it's the first time this year so i've planned to be missing-in-action till january 9th. and if things go according to plan, i'll also be snowboarding for 2 weeks in february-march: a week at les portes du soleil, switzerland, then a week in whistler, british columbia. no, i'm not sure how i'm going to pay for it yet.

i couldn't sleep again last night but somehow chrissy (the darling!) read my mind and called at about 3am. we talked for a long while and i think i fell asleep at about five and then had to get up at 9 to go snowboarding with the guys. it had started snowing over the weekend, really fluffy snow actually, but it was way too cold, way way too cold. got 2 runs before opting to hang out at the clubhouse with a cup of hot tea and chapter 4 of Middlesex.

i've also started reading lawrence lessig's free culture accompanied by a glass of J&B on my left and mug of earl grey on my right. my sidekick also stopped working upon entering the realm of vermont so there won't be any photodiary-ing for a bit. sadness.

dimanche, décembre 26, 2004

i'm finding it impossible to go to sleep. started sniffling this morning just before leaving the house. now my chest is starting to hurt, my nose is sore as fuck, and my lungs don't feel too great.

i do think i'm falling sick.

getting kinda pissed off about the tossing and turning. lights on, lights off. read several chapters of Middlesex. listened to azure ray, hope sandoval, yo la tengo amongst other things. wondered about the deposit for the french chalet. coughed. not happy with so many things. i wonder why i get so pissed off with so many things, so many people. maybe others are neurotic too. that's pretty fucked up as well. can't fucking sleep. why do so few things interest me nowadays? everything's like an escape.

i need to fall asleep. i miss you dad.

vendredi, décembre 24, 2004

pauline appeared in the middle of my dream with her face made up like someone from jem and the holograms. or maybe it was more britney spears-ish? but whatever i do think she was just kidding around with that make-up thing.

we seemed to be waiting for some people to arrive by airplane.

mercredi, décembre 22, 2004

hello. i'm about to go to bed. are you still awake?

had my first day of riding this season. for some reason i'm always nervous on the first day. took it easy and pretty much just warmed up the limbs. going to try to get at least 5 or 6 days before i head back to boston. was looking to practice on the halfpipe but it's not ready yet so that sucks. but maybe that's good because leonard won't hurt himself.

and late this evening i gave in to whim and bought 4 cds - one sinatra, 2 miles, and one coltrane.
this is super cool! google suggest, by kevin gibbs! ye olde roommate at the citgoset!

yeah! rawk on kevDawg! so proud! so proud!

mardi, décembre 21, 2004

jen and i had an awesome drive up to vermont. we yapped on forever, stopped by dunkin for lunch, wondered about think tanks, politcal PR, and other random things. got into burlington | essex junction, needed a nap but didn't take a nap, then had some J&B with mazz's dad and now i think the drink's already gone to my head.

mildy buzzzzzed.

going to try to help with dinner.

lundi, décembre 20, 2004

gosh, i've a business lunch at no. 9 park at noon and i'm dead tired and mildly spaced out.

but last night was pretty amazing so it's all good.

dimanche, décembre 19, 2004



Leo the Lion says hello.



On the road with Saleemster & Momo who were kind enough to give me a ride back to boston. In a happy state.

samedi, décembre 18, 2004



3 rows back from the end zone!



them stillers are gonna whoop ass today.

oh, and we found some fans to hang out with. these guys practically forced us into having drinks and food with them. definitely cool. "hey stiller fans! you all from the burgh? hey have some beer! what about food? we've got marinated steaks here, and penne vodka. this is my daughter - hey sweetie could you make me a gin and tonic? what do you guys want? screwdrivers? beers in the cooler over there. get some food!"

and check out those paper plates in the last photo.

vendredi, décembre 17, 2004

Not quite there

Not quite there

We've stopped at some place in connecticut I think. We're beside some water and there's a General Dynamics shipyard out here. Train just started moving again.



she came out to meet me last night. after the party we ran into cvs looking for yellow cleaning sponges. then we ran back in for magic erasers.

the train departs at 145pm. i should start packing.

jeudi, décembre 16, 2004

fuck this shit i'm crawling back into bed.
listening to panthalassa in the living room. really been digging the miles davis book too.

in a strange mood. i keep staring into space. i'll be at the steelers-giants game on saturday, then i leave for vermont on tuesday.

i saw her twice this week and maybe i'll get to see her again before i disappear north.

lundi, décembre 13, 2004

either this J&B hits really fast, or i drank a lot. either way i guess i win a prize. trying to psyche myself to get up and go out. get up and go out. have another drink leonard. then get up and go out.

dimanche, décembre 12, 2004

oh my this Karin Krog track is so lush - oh look (!) as it floats softly across the airwaves...
i've got the Platinum Pied Pied Pipers playing in the living room. jenn's telling me about the cuddly ringtone ghost in her mom's cellphone.

i've to admit here that i very much prefer taking pictures, rather than developing and printing them. but then the latter tasks are somewhat obligatory since i don't really trust anyone else to get them right. look if someone's going to fuck it up, i'd rather it be me.

so i guess i'll have to disappear into the darkroom today for a few. i have no time today to be depressed.

samedi, décembre 11, 2004

frightfully depressed, in the strangest possible ways.

this morning i got up at about six and walked out into the hallway and found the apartment a beautiful pale blue from the morning light. i actually held my breath for a few steps.

vendredi, décembre 10, 2004

a girl i met last week lent me a groovy cd that i've been playing on repeat the entire afternoon.

it's fun to have crushes, like on girls who actually write back. who cares if it's not serious at all, it just gives us something to get all excited about.

feel like i really need a nap.

jeudi, décembre 09, 2004



roo says hello. we almost got to run an errand that involved collecting about three hundred thousand dollars worth of jewelry. but then the people up above decided that they'd just send security guards. but oh we had the biggest burgers ever for lunch. yum.

mercredi, décembre 08, 2004

i think i'm in love with the chanel girl on 57th street.

no tie needed today - yay!

hiding out at 590 madison with Wayfaring Stranger on repeat. there's something hypnotic about neko case along with the moody weather in manhattan, though i must admit that the skies cleared up and it's absolutely gorgeous right now.

Hi Jenn's Mom: i've been informed the edamame included airfare from japan.

Greetings Jenn's Mom: c'est fraiche, pas gele!

mardi, décembre 07, 2004


Maia and I are on a HOT DATE at like the most retardedly expensive restaurant we've EVER been to. $25 fucking dollar edamame. but oh my, the food was heavenly.

oh my.

dimanche, décembre 05, 2004

that was totally fucking weird seeing her again. i wish we could talk better but it felt like we were almost strangers.

but it was nice.

Three hours

three hours to pack for new york AND to get my work done. i hate this lack of drive. i hate it i hate it.

though it's amazing how good each sip of espresso makes me feel. wow. everything's going to be alright. this is a beautiful sunday. (and i got a number last night.)
on the bus heading home after a sushi party at ali's. ran away from my responsibilities for few hours. let's hope i can get up at six in the morning to work. please try harder this time.

samedi, décembre 04, 2004

my ability to focus (on work) is so bad right now that i'm going to cut myself off from the fucking internet for the next few hours. there's seriously nothing to surf for but i keep checking the same news sites checking email checking random game reviews more news sites things to buy movies to see stop it leonard stop!

there's a party tonight and i'd really like to go but i can't and i shouldn't if i don't get shit done. work leonard work.
fuck. this is just about one of the worst cases of post-drinking-depression that i've had for a while. fuck fuck fuck. even crawling back into bed isn't as comforting anymore.



Ashley says she's goofy

Hi jenn's mom

Hi jenn's mom

this is jenn and jackie. we've got your daughter captive in boston.

vendredi, décembre 03, 2004

ce soir est devenu bizarre (to say the very least). il me semble que un par un, ils me fuient ou quoi.
sometimes, "ok cool we'll speak later!" is such an awesome way of being non-commital to any plans, and has the bonus of making us feel like we're actually going to possibly, perhaps, even try to meet up. i love it. no of course we want to hang out, it's just too much effort tonight.
dear catastrophe waitress - belle and sebastian
to all of you - rjd2
seasicked, yet still docked - morrissey
listen now - the knife
july jones - the new pornographers
unrecorded - m83
heartbreakin man - my morning jacket
i thought you'd fall for me - hope sandoval and the warm inventions

i've got about a week's worth of work to be done by sunday evening. i'm at the office feeling the urgent heaviness of it all, but somehow not really feeling the drive to get much of it done today. there's always tomorrow. isn't there?

i don't know. staring staring at visio maps and physician scripts and figuring out what hyperlycemia (FS>400) means.

oh yeah - jenn gets in at 10 tonight and we'll be partying in south boston. jason had a conversation with grandmaster flash yesterday, i think that's crazy supercool.

jeudi, décembre 02, 2004

slept badly on the plane ride back home, saw the most gorgeous sunrise from 30,000 feet. clouds dyed red with an orange horizon creeping up behind.

and then what happens?

i lose my fucking cellphone at the airport.

there's a fucking conspiracy out there. everyone's trying to get me.

mercredi, décembre 01, 2004

timm just got me on to Madlib my gawd this is goodshit. viva blue note!

( go listen )

and you'd think that water would be a decent moisturizer but nooooooo.
West Coast Hotel Rooms

my skin feels dry and it's beginning to annoy me quite a bit. where's that moisturizer when you need it. red-eye tonight. not really looking forward to it. i wonder if i'll get upgraded to first.